Well let me take what ever I said back. humm... do I really enjoy my life at this time?

Well you can say that I do like my life now but it feels as if a piece or even several is missing from my satisfaction. I've been so busy that I haven't caught up to any of my objectives. My relationship with my mom hasn't been going so well either. The only words that come out of my mouth are "BYE MOM" or “YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND." I've been stressing out and getting frustrated with every thing I see or deal. Time has flown by so quick, that I couldn't even stand straight to see what's important to me anymore. I don't know who my friends are, I don't know where I'm heading, and I clearly don't know what I’m trying to say.  I don't actually know what I want in life anymore and that frustrates me even more. I feel so empty as if I have no one or nothing of my own possession.  I don’t know this might be a phase that every one has to face, but all I know is that I’m feeling it. I'm so busy but yet i'm still bored.

RELIENT K

BE MY ESCAPE

   I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You